In which a legitimately unhealthy eat ended up in “HEALTHY EATS”:
These donuts were on my desk when I got to work this morning. A student from last year had come and brought them over because it’s his birthday today. Sweet and all, but great, you know? I actually really enjoy a donut every so often (and I haven’t had one in over 3 months). But. Today was supposed to be a great day. I was supposed to do everything right. Today, after slipping yesterday and having Phad Thai post workout (I was starving and it was a very heavy weight-lifting, and squats work out that left me incredibly dissatisfied with the idea of stopping by the market to have sliced fish soup and nothing else), I was supposed to wake up early (which I did) and cook my fish and garbanzos (WHICH I DID), and then I was supposed to spend the rest of the day being healthy.
Well here’s what today looked like up until this point:
Breakfast: Cottage cheese (97% fat free) with raw organic cacao nibs, cinnamon, and natural peanut butter with the oil/fats basically drained out of it.*
Snack: 10 almonds and cottage cheese (97% fat free) again
Lunch: Sutchi fillet, 1 serving of garbanzos – all seasoned with garlic and a tiny bit of natural unsweetened tomato sauce
Fantastic, I know. Doing so well. But these donuts…they were still there. I was pretty proud of the fact that I hadn’t even touched them but…then came the compromises. “A bite. Just a bite.”
God. And a bite obviously turned into me stripping half the frosting off and eating one crazy donut. There. You. Go. This is a problem. Why is it that I struggle with these things once a month? There always seems to be one week a month that this happens (see LAST MONTH’S POST on August 12, 2012: Between A Block of Fudge And A Hard Place).
I think the answer lies in two things:
2. Giving in to the temptation to become nonchalant when you see that you are making progress.
And I think these are the solutions:
1. Pretend this doesn’t exist at all so it can’t be an excuse. EVER.
2. Just push through. You push through on regular days so just…push through.
Yes. I am Superwoman and I can do this. This isn’t about me losing weight or getting skinny, honestly. This is about me revamping my lifestyle, and changing my body chemistry to create a better life for myself. Overall. And I know I can do this. The GOOD THING is that I actually did stick to my resolve from last month’s Between A Block of Fudge post. I have been counting my carbs, and I have to say that since I do that (and also with the help of PAG/AGG), I have maintained my weight, and even found it a little easier to build muscle. SO. Maybe this month, I will add in a NEW rule:
FOLLOW THE OLD RULES AND ALL SLOW CARB RULES FOR 30 DAYS STRAIGHT. And on cheat days count carbs too – eat whatever you want, but count the carb content and ensure it still fits below 150g (under the “effortless weight maintenance” section on the graph/curve).
Disclaimer: Dear, Readers, I apologize for the above word vomit. I’m sorry that you had to endure that, but more importantly I’m sorry that I’m not actually sorry. You have been a wonderful sounding board. Thank you.
*My peanut butter has no oil in it because I dropped the container and all the natural oil (which separates from the ground peanuts because it’s totally unprocessed) spilled out. Haha. Whoops.